My love, I hope that you are reading this. I may not be able express my feelings face-to-face but at least I can write it using a pen and my heart. “Hey, I have something to tell you…”, “What is it?”, “Oh never mind”. It would just be a typical conversation when I am talking to you. Sometimes, thoughts cross my mind, of reasons why I can’t tell you that I love you. It might become awkward between us two. Maybe you love someone else. Maybe you will stay away from me… or reject me and get mad at me. I keep assuming and dwelling in these, “maybes”, but how will I know if I do not try to tell you? But I know one thing for sure, that I love you and I wish I could tell you I love you.
Why am I so stupid and continue to wait this long to tell you what my heart says? You treat me like a friend but I treat you like someone who is more than friend – the one who I love. If I told you I love you, would you love me back? I am so glad to be your friend. I am so glad that we are really close to each other. I am happy because my friend is happy. The friend I’ve fallen in love with. Is a friend all I will be to you?
They say that I should tell you I love you already, before someone gets ahead of me. It’s like being in a parking lot, you need to immediately find a parking space before someone parks in that area. Same with love, tell your loved one how you feel, before it’s too late. Every night, I pray for courage so that I can express how I feel for you. So that I can tell you the three words I have been longing to tell you. My life will be filled with love and light if I can be with you. We talk frequently but why can’t I tell you the phrase, “I love you”.
That is why this time, there is no turning back. This time, I’ve focused myself on you. I’ve been waiting for this for so long. The time where I express my feelings for you with no doubt and by not being a coward. Now, I can finally speak the words I have always wanted to say to you, that I love you.