Chapter 16: A Book With No Title.
A lot of people asks about love – on how to love and on how to be loved. Love is not easy nor a game nor a sport. Love is not a race. Love is doing the things that you want and not what you should. Love should not be forced. Love is — What really is love? Love is explained in a lot of contexts, in a lot of books and a lot of ways. The Bible says, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails”( 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 ) Thoreau, a famous poet and essayist once said, “There is no remedy for love, but to love more.” And Mahatma Gandhi said that, “Where there is love there is life.” Love is described in different quotes, different books, and from different people. Love can be very unpredictable and very unsure. Love can be wrong but love can be right. Love can be full of hope but it can be with despair. Love is unsure. This book is about how I am such a failure when it comes love. A failure in which I failed to be loved because of how stupid I am to hold myself back and to really tell you how I feel. I do not know if I should love again or should I just stop myself from falling for someone who would not catch me the way I would catch one’s heart. I do not want to be hurt anymore. Until now, I do not know how to express myself. I do not know how to show what i really feel. That is why I am writing this book. A book with no title. A book that is very unsure. Unsure of the chapters of my life. Unsure of the things that are going on in my head right now. This book is for you.
Chapter 17: Chapter 1
It’s been 3 years and a new chapter of my life has yet to begin. A beginning that would change my world and how I think about love. There are so many questions I can think of on why I chose you. I do not know why in your eyes I seem like a prisoner, a captive. I do not know why, with so many people in the world, I have found you. A lot of people tell me that you are the “school crush”, I will not deny that. You really are truly beautiful and I have no questions as to why they are so fascinated by your beauty. But things have changed now. Three years is quite a long time. And I already have moved on from you. Time has healed all my wounds. Time helped me to find myself in a dark forest where I was lost but now I am found. I found myself that I never even I knew I could. I was close to losing hope but now I already found the light when I was in the darkness. I found where my heart was because it was on the edge of the crater where one step would be my end. I think it is time for me to start over again. This is my new chapter…